Donald Lawrence said there was a King (Queen) in me.
I wish I had known.
I went to church every Sunday as a child.
I attended Sunday School.
I was a faithful youth usher, choir member
And everything else youth were involved in.
I had no choice.
Daddy made sure of that.
I celebrated your birth
I learned that you gave your life for me.
You loved me that much.
I learned that you’re powerful
After all, you rose from the dead.
I learned you were righteous and
Required my best behavior.
And I tried.
I learned how important you should be to me
BUT if I had known
Just how much you cared
About everyday, mundane things in my life.
I would have consulted you about my college and career choices,
who I dated, where I lived.
Heck, How I felt during those confusing teenage years.
Maybe my self perception would have been better.
What other’s thought would have had less influence.
Maybe I would have realized dark chocolate was beautiful.
I mattered to you during that painful transition from childhood to adulthood.
If I had known what your loving me really meant,
Maybe, just maybe I would have made better decisions.
Maybe, just maybe I would have lived like who YOU positioned me to be.
Maybe, just maybe I would have known there was a QUEEN in me.